“The best things in life are free. The second best things are very, very expensive.” ~Coco Chanel
Saturday, January 10, 2026
Random Thoughts Galore
Sunday, January 04, 2026
Lego - Titanic
Hello all! Hope you are all having a wonderful start to the year so far. I am beginning 2026 with a post about my holy grail of a Lego set: the Titanic.
For those of you who know me, I have always read and learned about the tragic case of Titanic since the movie came out decades ago. My dad had always wanted to build a Titanic model but it never happened. He had bought me a plastic model by Revell many years ago but unfortunately I didn't do a great job with putting it together (nor did I have paint available), and M ended up knocking it off the fireplace so it broke apart (no pun intended).
For years, I waited to see if anything would come out but I didn't find anything significant. That is, until November 2021 rolled around.
In October 2021, Lego had teased us all on Instagram on the future release of the Titanic set. This was no ordinary Lego build. This was meant for the hardcore builders and fans. At 9090 pieces, it was (and still is) one of the largest Lego builds to date. When it was officially released in November, it sold out pretty quickly and was on backorder for a while.
At that time, I really wanted it, but the problem was...I had no where to put it. It's just over 53 inches in length, which makes it longer than most of my tables at home. So for that time, I would only daydream about it. The price in 2021 was $799.99 Canadian. INSANE!
Now, fast forward to summer 2025. The price of Lego Titanic had gone up another $50. Thank you inflation and thank you Liberals.
At this point, I wasn't getting any younger. I might as well try to exercise my brain and fingers, along with my back.
The Lego Titanic was ordered. Hubby and I went to the Lego store to pick it up. This was when we saw the sales associate carry this MASSIVE box from the back, and take a quick break before hitting the cashier counter. Some stores offered a cart to wheel packages considering some are huge boxes. But hubby is so strong, he managed to carry it on his own (thank you hubby!).
Man, oh man. Giant is an understatement. I could sit on the boxes and it would not break. Now, considering the build is already done, I will share with you some of the progress and pictures that I took during each phase. The Titanic comes with 3 boxes, divided into 3 sections of the ship (the bow, middle section, and stern). Each section came with its own instruction manual. Based on the manuals, the stern is the hardest section to build. Obviously you can choose which section to build first as you don't NEED to start at the bow first.
I suggest to not rush this build because there are so many pieces. I'm no expert builder, but there were a few times when I missed a piece or put it the wrong way and I had to try again. Nonetheless I never lost patience and just took my time. Total time it took to build the entire Titanic was about 2.5 weeks, and I spent about 2 hours (maybe 3) per day.
I started with Box 1, which was the bow section. I think the most challenging part of this build was getting the outer walls put together. If you snap too hard, the entire thing collapses. Considering it's the bow section, the Legos are aligned on an angle which makes it challenging. The coolest part about this section was the internal aspect, where you get to see the boilers and first/second/third class rooms aligned on top of another.
Transverse section showing the pool, boilers, and the bedrooms of each class. This is now the second box.
As the manual says, the stern section is probably the most challenging of the 3 sections. For someone who doesn't build much Lego (me), I found it to be ok. That's only because I wasn't rushing myself to have it all done at a specific time. I think the hardest part was getting the tube snapped down properly around the curve of the stern (the fence part you can say) because I couldn't align it 100% the way I wanted. Eventually I did though, after doing it about 2 times. The propellers felt quite delicate, like something was going to snap when I tried to turn it internally (thankfully it did not).
The last section begins with the final 4th funnel section, and this is where the working piston engines are located. This part may also seem a bit repetitive, with some variations internally.Lego RMS Titanic Product Info:
Product Set #: 10294
Number of pieces: 9090
Price (in Canadian): $849.99
Age: 18+
Length: 53 inches (135cm)
Height: 17.5 inches (44cm)
Width: 7 inches (17.78cm)
Scale: 1:200
Design: comes in 3 sections and is divided up to make it easier to transport
Thursday, January 01, 2026
Happy 2026!
Sunday, December 28, 2025
Build-a-Bear: Giant Kuromi
Thursday, December 25, 2025
Merry Christmas!
I want to wish everyone a Merry Christmas. Yes, I said it. Merry CHRISTmas because it is all about the birth of Christ. Without Him, there would be no life.
Wishing you all a safe and happy times with family!
Sunday, December 21, 2025
Laminectomy & Discectomy
Wednesday, November 26, 2025
In memory of M - 10 years later
Nov 26, 2015 is a day I will not forget.
If you've been reading this far, you would have remembered I wrote an entire post about M back in 2015 around this time to commemorate my first cat.
I just can't believe it's been 10 years already. It almost felt like it was yesterday.
So many things have happened in 10 years, which I wish he was still around to see and celebrate my milestones. It's hard to forget your first pet.
While I was in the kitchen today, there's that particular spot on the floor that I still remember he would spend his last few hours struggling to breathe, just laying there helpless, with tears in his eyes. And it made me sad. But knowing that his soul is now free and that he's no longer suffering, it helps to put all this anxiety at ease.
Over the years, I had collected a few charms from Pandora to commemorate him, along with my own family charms. It took a while, but the charm bracelet was finally done, and I do plan to wear it in remembrance of him.
Now that we have 2 additional cats since 2018, they have definitely occupied time and making new memories. But I'll never forget M. Because of M, I am still able to love those around me.
Thank you M. Thank you for growing up with me, for the great memories, for the love. I hope you are having fun up there with your friends on rainbow bridge.
<3
Sunday, November 23, 2025
2025 - A new journey
For those who have been checking in and reading this blog, thank you for keeping up! I know it's been a really long time since I last updated here. But all is well.
2025 has been quite a rough ride for me health wise. It began from a pre-existing injury that I had many years ago and I guess my body decided, yes 2025 is the year to be crippled. I will use the next post as a more detailed medical update. All is well now though.
Since my last post, I haven't gone on any vacations out of the country (lame), haven't bought any handbags (lame), haven't bought any heels (lame) and this is all thanks to inflation (lame), but I started a new obsession with Sanrio's character: Kuromi (lame). I still love Stitch though! Still my favourite Disney character.
Big shout-out as well to the team for Stitch movie, as it was the only North American movie in 2025 to cross the $1B mark back in July!
Build-A-Bear workshop has massive Sanrio characters that can be purchased online (but for some reason not available in stores here in Canada). Small and regular size characters are all available in store. So, what did I do this time? I ordered a massive Kuromi. Decided to stuff in stores. I remember we brought the shell to the store and the look on the employee's face when she realized it was not the regular sized character, but the massive size one. "Yeah, this is going to take at least 15 minutes to fill."
She was not joking.
Unfortunately there aren't any clothes from the store that will fit these massive characters. The only thing you can buy is the character's themed tie but that's about it. You might have to find clothes at a children's clothing store to fit these massive bears. In the meantime, Kuromi will remain naked.
Next up: cars.
No, I did not buy any new cars (lame). My Genesis and Cayman S remain with me. Aside from the one cruise that I did in April with hubby and friends, the rest of the time I had to put a pause this year on car cruises and meets due to the medical issues. It sucks, but it is what it is. Hopefully 2026 car season will be a better outcome. Otherwise I live vicariously through other people's social stories.
Our beloved date spot (Koi Klaw) unfortunately closed back in April so we had to finish up our remaining credits and claim our massive plushie prizes. I'm not sure if another similar company will be taking over, but for now it remains closed.
I will now save my energy for the next post, as it will detail the majority of my 2025 journey. Stay tuned.
Friday, December 06, 2024
2024 - Conclusion
Tuesday, March 05, 2024
Versace Aevitas Pumps
Sunday, January 21, 2024
2024 - A New Era
Happy Belated New Year! Cheers to 2024!
I hope you are all well whoever has made it this far in reading my random thoughts over the years. I broke my promise that I would not wait too long between posts, and yet I have not posted anything in almost a year. Time to play catch up because it was A LOT! I will leave work out of this one because everyday has been a blur for the past year. I will however shift it to ... love adventures.
The last post I wrote was about dating apps. And it felt like I had totally given up on love (at least on finding anyone on dating apps). I kept believing that maybe it was a sign I would be single forever, that it would be my final fate. I was ok with it, yet my heart still was longing for love, hoping that I would still meet someone somehow. My first step was to get out of my room first because I wasn't going to find love if I stayed in my room forever (or maybe they'd find me).
About a month after my post last year, I had a couple of coworkers come up to me to try and set me up with people...people they either knew or were of friends of friends. The good thing about it is at least someone knows they exist. Now, this could go either good or bad: if things go well, then everyone is happy. If things go bad, the friendship/relationship would be awkward.
At that time I was still a 50/50 in meeting new people. I ended up chatting with both guys that were referred to me (man, this sounds like a job interview). One was a gentleman and successful and we had a few dates here and there. The other was a bit more socially awkward and spoke a lot about himself. Never met up with this one as he would ask me after midnight if I wanted to meet up the next day for lunch, so he was dropped for inconsideration of my time.
As things progressed with the first guy, I had to remind myself that I was not going to be dating around for fun, but for marriage purposes. Is he the one? As nice and successful as he was, I didn't feel that feeling of "he is the one". People tell me all the time...when you know, you know. You can't force it; you'll end up resenting him (same with guys). I always hate having to tell someone that although they're a great person, this wouldn't work out between us because of ABC. But it is better to tell them than waste everyone's time.
After that very interesting month, I decided to just go back to my usual self: the workaholic with a car cruising hobby. I promised myself I wouldn't dare find another guy in the car community so participating in cruises and rallies would be fine. I wasn't participating to find love, but to enjoy the hobby. I aimed to keep my mind busy and not sulk on what I didn't have.
Until he came back.
Well actually, I had already met him 6 years prior in a non-car community setting (hallelujah). But to finally say I found love (and organically too!) is so rare these days. It's funny how love is, and how God works in mysterious ways over the years. The main difference this time? I can finally say I know that feeling. The right feeling. The feeling of true love. The caring type of love. The calmness that love brings. The exciting type of love.
Ladies and gentlemen, I have found my one. The one to be with for the rest of my life.
I will leave my journey of love on the next post. This time, I swear it won't be a 2025 post. For those who are still single and waiting on love, you will want to read the next post. Don't give up on love.
Friday, February 10, 2023
Dating Apps 2.0
Remember when I said you wouldn't find me on any dating apps?
It still holds true to this day.
There is a but though. BUT......
In 2022, I did sign up for ONE app. It was not one of the very common ones (Tinder, Bumble or Hinge). I decided to give it a try. ONE TRY.
I lasted for about 3 weeks. Not even a month. And then I quit.
That's how disgusting these dating apps are.
Let's rewind back to sometime in 2022.
I decided to sign up, upload whatever pictures I thought would bring out my beauty, and figure out how to use the darn thing. Because it was a free app, it only allowed certain amounts of guys for you to view for the day. Then you'd have to wait 24 hours to get the next batch of guys. If I paid money, I would get to see every guy who had liked me and choose who to connect with. Sounds like a waste of money.
I saw all these hearts and likes in my account when I signed back in. Unfortunately I could not see them all because I'm a cheapskate and didn't pay for the app. But I figured I'll get through that list eventually. Someday.
There were a good amount of Asian guys on there. Some of them I recognized from school. I kept telling myself I should message them to say hi.
Let's forward to the ones who did match with me.
I don't remember how many I matched with, but I could count on one hand how many normal conversations I had with the guys. The rest were either weird, very desperate, or ghosts. By ghosts, I mean he would say hello. I'd say hello. His next reply would be 5 days later. Then on the last day before the messages expire, he would ask if he could have my number. UMMM I don't think so. I don't even know you. Goodbye.
The other one started off the conversation with "hey, want to meet up for coffee?" UMMM no, I don't even know you. No icebreaker? I get that people don't want to waste any time but this was way too fast.
Another was from a local church. We did have a pretty good conversation for the first few days. Unfortunately it died off on the last day before messages expire. But he did invite me to check out the English service one day if I was up for it. Thank you kind sir.
Of all the guys I spoke with via messages, I only ever met up with one guy for dinner. He seemed nice and decent. Except for the fact that he kept pushing to watch Turning Red at his condo. Maybe I'm not used to this current dating culture but I did inform him that I was not comfortable going to anyone's place on a first date. The fact that I had to repeatedly say it just showed how much this person really cared. Non existent.
Now we go into this whole "who pays for dinner on the first date?" I recalled asking him if he wanted to split the bill, but some guys end up footing the bill, which he did. I thanked him for that. We then agreed to grab a bubble tea, of which I said I would grab the bill. I'm not used to the whole "let's split 50/50". I think it's lame. If you invite me, you grab this bill. I'll grab the next. None of this BS 'let me pay you back $26.87. JUST NO.
It seemed like a good first date. But it wasn't the right click for me. Then again, I only met the guy this evening. Maybe I just need more time.
The night ended off with a thank you and a hug, and then one last invitation to go back to the condo for a movie. I politely declined and waved goodbye (as my mind was worried about making it to work the next morning).
The next few days we chatted on text. He asked if we could go for another date, and there was just something holding me back from accepting that. I didn't know what it was, but it just held me back. The next few days texting back and forth, he was quite open with sharing various food pictures and condo pictures, except I noticed he would say stuff like "I'm hanging out with my friend tonight. Her and I will just be chatting and watching a movie." It's 1am bro. What kind of chatting are you doing.
Another would be catsitting for a girl friend. Ummm you're catsitting for less than 12 hours? Doesn't make sense either. Cats will be fine without company for 12 hours.
While he was my longest connection on a dating app, it ended rather quickly with him ghosting me. When guys complain about girls ghosting them, it also happens to girls too! But I was so relieved it was over. I guess in this current culture, it's normal for everyone to be dating 25 people at once. There's no more of the "let me focus on one person first and if that doesn't work out, I'll just try again later with someone else." NOPE. No more of that.
My mind has not gotten used to this culture. The whole let's sleep with 25 people or more until I find the right person. No thanks. I don't want to have a relationship with a STD or STI. I'm good.
The next guy I never met in person. We had a good chat for days as well, until he stopped messaging for whatever reason. About 2 months later, he messaged to say hello!! It's been over half a year and I have not responded back.
After this, I ended up deleting the app for a few reasons. One, because of a family emergency. Two, because I realized if I wanted to go out and meet all these guys, I would have to make time out of my already packed schedule to meet these strangers. Unfortunately I couldn't commit to that. There was also no guarantee that they would commit either. Three, most of the guys on these apps are looking for something casual.
This was the beginning and end of my dating app adventure. I'm definitely not signing up for anymore. It was too much for my brain to handle.
Here's to hoping I can find love the normal/natural way (sans dating apps).
Sunday, January 22, 2023
2023 - HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
It's officially 2023!!
Well, Happy New Year to all of you readers. Thanks for continuing to read my random posts. It's crazy how I've had this blog since I was in high school, which seems like a VERY long time ago. Almost 20 years to be exact. Man, I feel old.
I guess you are wondering why I've kept it for so long. I don't know if I have an exact answer. Part of me is thinking this is almost like a personal diary (except for those who know this link). I can always go back to it and re-read the years and laugh about it. In a way, it's like I've watched myself grow. The other reason is looking back on various events, handbag purchases (haha), and they all have a sentimental value to me. I also appreciate the good and bad that I have blogged about over the years. A lot of my friends who started blogging with me in high school are no longer doing that (unless they have secret pages that I don't know about) as they are all busy with life, and that's understandable. Life takes over and then you forgot you have a blog. I'll aim to keep this going for as long as I can.
Well, we are still in this pandemic after 3 years. It's gotten to the point that people are just sick and tired of it. Ultimately, the people who are the ones that are tired from it are the health care workers dealing with COVID cases. ICU has been bombed with cases during this last wave (to be honest, I've lost count of which wave we are in right now). Omicron variant has sent people into ICU faster than the previous waves. I haven't been into the ICU lately but have friends who work there and they are all burnt out from this pandemic. During Christmas, it was the worst 2 weeks of my entire career. I was helping to staff the unit and it was a logistical nightmare trying to staff all the sick calls, LOA, family emergencies during the holiday. Management said it was the worst Christmas season they've ever dealt with as well. I have never pulled that much OT in a short time span. Everyone who is working doesn't want to work for the money. Those who were off didn't want to come in. It only left very few choices, and ultimately I ended up staying for either 10, 12 or 16 hours at a time. It's exhausting.
Carjackings. There's been so many of that happening.
2022 was a record of how many cars were stolen from Toronto and shipped overseas for profit. Majority of them are still SUVs (Lexus RX, Honda CRVs being the top ones, F150 pick ups, Raptors are also common). I didn't really hear of sports cars being stolen. I mean, if they're stealing SUVs to use for illegal smuggling, bombings, driving over uneven terrains, then surely a sports car would be useless for that.
I was wrong.
Near the end of 2022 was when a friend had their Ferrari F12 TDF in bright orange carjacked late in the evening. Stolen from Forest Hill area. This story blew up all over social media, especially within the car community. Everyone had their eyes on this car.
Eventually the car was found parked in a handicap spot, underground at an apartment. It was not the police who found it. But a car spotter with a very keen eye. If it wasn't for him, the car would be long gone in a shipping container destined for Dubai.
Unfortunately that is what happened with another local car enthusiast when his GT3RS and jeep were stolen off his driveway. He was not very lucky with recovering the vehicles. The Jeep was found to be in Montreal. The RS was missing for 4 months, until another car enthusiast spotted it on a Dubai website for sale in late December. Early this month, that post went viral. Many people were bombarding the shop with messages of selling stolen vehicles from Canada. Eventually their social media shut down, and the listing for the RS was removed from their website.
Really, none of us are safe. If you own a sedan or SUV/pick up, you're at risk of having your cars exported to Africa or Middle East. If you own a luxury sports car (depending on model and how limited they are), they could end up in Dubai for the very wealthy.
My advice? If you live in a house (whether it's detached, semi or townhouse), walk backwards into your home. It sounds stupid and may look like you have serious mental issues, but it's the only way that you will get to see your surroundings. Stare people down if you have to. Make yourself look crazy so no one approaches you. Once you turn your back and head towards your door, that's the window of opportunity for someone to run up behind you and attack.
If you're out shopping and heading towards your car, always be aware of your surroundings. If you can, do a quick scan before approaching your vehicle. I usually do a full 360 to ensure my tires are all inflated. Considering how low profile my cars are, I don't expect anyone to be hiding underneath the car, or in it as my back seats are very small or non-existent. However, people can still put tracking devices underneath your car if they really want to follow you home. And that's why you walk backwards into your home.
Handbags.
Oh boy. Thankfully I have not bought too many in the past year. I did add on a Louboutin tote bag (which I can always review in another post). I am also awaiting a custom bag locally that will have a Porsche emblem on it to match the car. Until then, I think I am done with purchasing. It's insane how much they have increased prices over the years. Unless something REALLY catches my attention, I will sit on the side lines for now. Then again, I say that every damn year.
Dating.
Man, what is with the dating scene these days? When they say there are so many options in hospitals, they're lying. Unless they mean patients, which is against the rule anyways. I'm not adventurous enough to roam the city and find random people to befriend. There's also not much time as I'm mostly working (that's on me though, as I could technically make time, but I choose not to). Everyone suggested 'try the dating apps!'
Ok so here's my story. It's actually not that interesting. But I signed up for ONE dating app just to try it out. It was free, but they only send you limited suggestions per day. As a woman, you get to choose who you want to connect with, but you can only do that in a limited amount per day. If you pay, you can see everyone's messages. Keep in mind, I'm not that desperate to find anyone. And I'm definitely not paying if I'm not desperate.
When they say dudes are always being ghosted, I can disagree. Women also get ghosted too. I remember striking up normal conversations, starting off with "hi, how are you" or they had a common interest, you ice break by joking or something. The guys' responses would take days before they acknowledge anything. After almost 7 days of on and off random conversations, they would either stop talking, or ask "want to meet up?" Yeah, no thanks.
My favourite is when one guy messaged and just asked let's meet up. UMM NO. Maybe if I want to die tonight then sure.
I only survived 3 weeks before quitting it entirely. Part of it was because I wasn't that desperate to date. Part of it was because of a family emergency.
All in all, those dating apps have made me NOT want to date anymore. It's such an entirely different world out there. I'll just date my cars.
Alright, that's it for now. Must do some chores.
Thursday, October 07, 2021
So now it's Fall...Reflection time 2021
Every time I revisit my page, I forget it's been months if not years from my last post. I'm terrible at updating. Still alive and kicking.
I remember when I told myself 2021 would be my year. And so far, it's been AMAZING. Stress-free, worry-free. Hang out with my family and friends. It's been quite nice.
Summer 2021 was quite amazing. I made sure to not waste this summer on dumb people and spend it on those who I truly care about. Enjoy life and enjoy the summer without working like a madwoman. Ok, maybe I did still work like a mad woman. However, I made sure to not pile my schedule like crazy with work and still took my weekends off to explore Ontario with family and friends. I felt that summer was just way too short. Wish the summer weather would keep continuing.
You know that feeling when you've committed x amount of years with someone and hoped for the best, hoped for a great future but as the years dragged on, it just wasn't meant to be? Yeah, it's a crappy feeling for sure. You feel it's such a waste of time and energy. But there's always a reason why that person was there in the first place. I can't say for every case what that person's goal was in your life, but to me it made me realize that I shouldn't settle for less. Especially when they don't have the same spiritual goals or overall life goals as you. As time goes on, you just hope for the best but in the end it wasn't meant to be. It also made me realize to trust my gut feelings. Don't ever fight your feelings. You may keep telling yourself everything will be fine, but when that internal feeling is screaming at you, that's not a good thing. I also realized I was never really assertive enough. I was just too nice. I put people first, making them all happy and not realizing I was making myself miserable. This is the hardest lesson to learn.
My biggest lesson learnt: if your potential in laws cannot accept who you are based on your race or religion, or what you look like - you better make sure you truly love that person to fight for them. That person has to fight for you as well. Otherwise it's not worth it. My view has changed now, in that if they do not like me, then oh well. Because I'm not going to prove to anyone that I'm a nice girl. You will see it through my actions already. You don't need any further proof. But if I have to start changing who I am to make them happy, then that's not who I am. I'm just faking my way through. There's no more "just do it and make them happy". No sis. Don't do that bullshit. If you have to do something to make others happy to save face, then that's not who you are. It wasn't meant to be. You should only do things because you want to do it, not because others told you what to do.
I'm definitely still recovering, and I have had some pretty bitter moments. But I do remind myself that I am in a much better place than I was a year ago, or 2 years ago, heck maybe even 3-4 years ago. I'm happier. I see my friends more often now. I get out of the house more often. I try to drive more now, go on more cruises. It's been quite refreshing. Life is good.
I don't get as many questions now about "why aren't you married yet" or "don't you want any kids?" "why are you wasting your life away?"
First of all, I'm not grabbing any random stranger off the street and marrying them. I don't believe in arranged marriages or blind dates. Plus, you don't need to be married to be successful in life. Kids. Right. Touchy subject for some people. But growing up, I never intended to have any kids. I never pictured myself as a mother and still don't. That's who I am, and that will probably never change. I'm definitely not wasting my life away considering how busy I am in my professional life. I enjoy it, although it does have its challenges and burn out moments. But I wouldn't trade it for the world. I never dreamt of working 2 jobs in my life, but it's been quite rewarding and I always set a yearly goal: to surpass last year's salary. So far I have not failed in that goal.
Am I a loser? A failure at life? An Asian leftover?
Let me tell you one thing. The more bad relationships one goes through, the harder it is to settle with anyone because expectations are now very high and unattainable. So no, I don't see myself as a failure in life, nor a left over, or a loser. In fact, I see myself as a hot commodity, and if no man is willing to get to know me or work with me in life, then that's his loss. At this point, I don't want to waste anymore time on guys who cannot think for themselves or cannot detach themselves from their parents. I'm not there to fix anyone. I spend my entire career trying to fix people, and the last thing I want to do is fix someone when I come home. No thanks.
This girl is living the single life like I'm high on methamphetamine.
And this goes out to any of you who have gotten out of a long term relationship. Don't rush yourselves. Don't start dating right away. Don't run back to your ex. Don't do those dumb things. As soon as you rush into another relationship, you will regret it and you will also hurt that innocent person. Just don't do it. I have been told to try online dating, and my response is: no thanks. I don't want to get raped or killed by some ugly dude who looks like Frodo. Some people do find their soulmates via online dating and good for them! But I say the majority on there are there for a quick bang and that's it. I don't have time to waste on that, so you won't see me there. But please, do let me know if you come across my face on a profile. I can guarantee you that's not me though.
Maybe some day I will find someone, maybe not. Who knows. I don't want to give up on love but my past experiences have made me almost doubt if human love exists anymore. The more I seek, the more I find non-compatible partners. I've stopped looking and if one day love finds me, then may that be the happiest and blessed moment of my life.
Onto the next....
Epic training. For those who have used the Epic system, I don't know how you guys and girls handled it in the beginning. I have heard good things about it once people know how to use it. Unfortunately for me, we haven't gotten there yet. So to keep things a bit short, I was selected by the leadership team to represent my department and be a super user for this program. Prior to the go-live date, I, along with other selected members, am responsible in testing various department computers and to report to IT on the success or failures of this system. You may be wondering why the IT is not doing this and why a random nurse or manager was selected? I guess because IT is also short on staff. But the rest of us will be using the system everyday, so this is also why we were selected to test. None of us were trained to use this system, yet we are now told to go test every computer in a given time frame.
It has been a chaotic experience as we have to be committed to this job on top of our everyday job. Which means my job gets pushed back, and it means backlog work. The worst is when your coworker goes off on vacation and you're left to cover the entire program's issues, as well as do this Epic testing. I believe I can feel myself actually burning out now. I would've thought the pandemic would burn me out, but no, it's THIS!
So yes, this is totally keeping me busy. I can't imagine if I was still in a relationship while trying to juggle this. I would never hear the end of it. So the fact that I'm NOT in a relationship, at least I can just come home and sleep.
My next thought...
I was aiming to wear my Louboutin heels to my cousin's wedding last month. However, that plan failed. Even after trying to break those heels in, walking around the house in them, stuffing socks in them. I couldn't do it. And I'm thankful I didn't because that ceremony location, from the parking lot to the venue was a long walk in itself. My feet would've died. I'm not sure when I will get a chance to wear them in public, but let's hope it's a place where I don't have to walk very much.
Speaking of shoes, I had bought these cute flats from Winners back in 2015 in Vancouver when I had that presentation. It was such a find, as it was my first time shopping with my managers, and one of them suggested them for me. They cost only $10! They were my pride and joy. Sad thing is, over the years because they were so comfortable and I kept wearing them, they did wear out and had split at the front. But I kept wearing it! Eventually they were a bit too embarrassing to wear to work, considering the position I am in. But I just couldn't get rid of them. It had that much sentimental value to me.
Wearing the Loub flats and kitty flats to work took a toll on my feet. Also on their soles. So I knew I had to find another casual pair of flats to wear to work.
I did try searching Winners again, but unfortunately did not find any cute flats. I tried Walmart but same thing. Eventually I settled with Brown's shoes, which carries various brands. I had an eye for Michael Kors flats. I did tell myself I would never buy anything MK. However, the flats were too cute to not resist. I wish they had cost $10 but this was more like 15x the price. They are also super comfortable. The only downside? My feet are very weird. My right foot is slightly shorter than my left so every time I walk in flats, my right shoe feels like flying off. Can you imagine asking a shoe store to give your left foot size 9 but give your right foot a 8.5? They would kill me.
Anyways, I guess that's what shoe stickies are for. Thankfully I have some at home and can just put it in the back of the shoe to somewhat extend my feet forward. With the Loubs, it still feels tight in both feet. So weird indeed.
MK is now my daily and I have officially retired my Winners. Thank you little cute flats.
Stay tuned for my next rant/reflection (not sure when that will be...hopefully not next year!).



























